I came from a past of self-serving motivation and a desire for adventure and dangerous excitement. It was the result of being tossed around until I was finally adopted. I never really felt like I fit anywhere. I kept a private personality all to myself that no one could take from me or see. I used other personalities to get things done outside of that. As I came into my late teens and early 20’s, I had a real need for wild freedom and took every drug there was to find that fun-place. It led me to many dangerous places including the criminal 1% lifestyle which led me to a mafia lifestyle including gun running and drug dealing, wild partying and dangerous missions. That finally got an FBI number infused into my criminal record. Like a ninja, I simply didn’t process any fear. After a few more years of running and gunning, I had become frustrated with a particular situation that was truly dangerous and most likely was going to make me disappear for good. I was very angry at this event that made me decide to leave town after I had just started dating a girl I was very interested in, who seemed to go with the flow of my lifestyle at the time.
After leaving town and heading to the mountains out west, I got involved in another situation where a group showed up at my house when I was partying and shot one of my friends in the head and tied up my other friend and I with bailing wire. Then they proceeded to take everything in the house including my new four-wheel-drive van. The duffel bag I always used with my ID’s was taken and I never saw it again. We should have died because this group had not been leaving witnesses alive, so the authorities were convinced that we were connected to the group. The girl I was dating stayed with me for four years during all of my wild wandering. We got married and then proceeded to have a family, but I still wasn’t ready to settle down. I had been traveling as usual and a group of women from her parents’ church came and prayed with her and led her to the Lord. I was furious! I loved this woman, and she betrayed my lifestyle. I finally came to the end of myself and laid it down after contemplating falling on my sword as the best way out for everyone. That’s when God announced himself to me as I asked one question in my head: “Where will I end up?” I always believed in heaven and hell but never processed what it took to get to heaven. 
I just assumed I would land in hell having been so involved in satanism, so let’s get it over with. As I contemplated all the scenarios, I concluded that the one thing I had not tried was God Himself. I got saved that day and would love to tell you I never looked back. What I didn’t know at the time was, my wife had not stopped praying for me the whole four years. When I found that out, it broke me to the core, and I became dead to that old man. I am a new Creation.
Choose encouragement and choose a life in Christ which gives you the truest freedom and greatest adventures you’ll ever know. Someone is praying for you and that someone is now me. I went from gangster to gangster for Jesus, and so can you.
~ Ninja, Last Disciples MC, International President
